当城市男孩站在乡下的土地上

我算是个城市男孩吧。从小不曾离开外婆方圆几米的保护区内。外婆和阿姨连栏杆都不让我翻，我却很想爬爬树。庆幸的是，她们并没有把我关在家里，我的童年有沙滩、海洋和蓝天的陪伴，还有脚踏车、沙堡和风筝相随。

或许你们不了解我为什么喜欢看天和星星，我想可能是和我来到这世界的最初六年有关。由于外婆家后面就是所谓的“清洁海边”，每天傍晚五点阿姨就会牵着我的小手到沙滩。我习惯了看黄昏，看蓝天，和看飞鸟。离开了童年，我努力找机会再次让细沙从指缝间流过，再次举目眺望远方的海平线，再次抬头仰望深蓝的天。在那里六年，我几乎所有在海边能进行的活动如野餐、堆沙堡、画沙和放风筝等等我都做过，唯独在海里游泳和露营这些被外婆列为危险活动我没尝试过。所以说，小学作文课写《野餐记》时，我写的全部都是亲身经历过的，除了游泳。

在钢骨水泥间长大的男孩，渴望亲眼目睹在美术课常画的乡村景色。

因此，我决定乘着还不需要把头裁在书堆里的时候，单枪匹马杀到“槟榔蹲高”（Pinang Tunggal) 去完成这个心愿。

当我在出发的前一天再次向震杰和晨鑫确认时，他们的反应让我很失望。

晨鑫说：“啊,你来真的啊！”

震杰说：“你到了再讲。”

真不知你们惊讶什么呢，我很少（不敢说从来没有，呵呵。）说话不算数，也没有说说而已的恶习。

此行下乡也算是一种自助背包旅行吧。到了那里天不作美，刮大风，下大雨。参观晨鑫的家时，还是头一遭看见身材魁梧的晨鑫卷缩着身体靠在沙发上喊怕。震杰也神色凝重。我则觉得这暴风雨没什么好怕的，很想跑到外边看闪电。原来晨鑫说暴风曾经把他的屋顶给吹走，雨水弄湿了他的房间。但，我还是一点畏惧都没有，可能是我无法体会他们过去所经历的恐惧吧。

人们常称初次到城市来的乡下人为土包子，但初次到乡下的城市人呢？应该称之为钢包子吧。哈哈。

我真的就像第一次到城市的乡下人一样，对乡里的一切感到非常的好奇。我把他们司空见惯的东西问到一大堆，问到他们都烦了。我几乎对每一样事物都发出惊叹，这也让他们觉得我很“三八”。当城市男孩站在乡下的土地上，就像当年哥伦布站在美洲大陆上。

震杰觉得他的家很老旧，但我非常喜欢住在那里的感觉。虽然旧，他的家并没有让我有恶心和不舒适的感觉。说也奇怪，他说他梦想能有一间像我家的公寓。不如我搬到他家，他搬到我家好了。

雨停了我们去钓鱼。去之前是在震杰家后的树林找长竿和挖蚯蚓当鱼饵。我没想过我敢徒手拿起我一看就觉得恶心的蚯蚓。其实，别看他们在这里长大，晨鑫没有钓过鱼呢。所有的材料用具都在晨鑫杂货店里垂手可得。我们少了马来同胞的技术，在加上“鱼儿”嘉娱向鱼儿们发出警告，我们一无所获。

原来，骑着摩托车在乡间游荡是件很惬意的事情。迎面而来的风和360度全视角的美景让你尽收眼底。我们一路奔驰在乡间的小径上，兜兜转转，不曾回头，却也能回到家。其实我母亲的家庭是绝对不让我们坐上摩托车的，因此我这一次可犯了娘家第一大条家规，哈哈。不过

震杰提议我们通宵看戏吃火锅，我们便大老远到双溪大年买原料。我想去看满天星，但震杰说早上五点才是最暗的时刻。在他家客厅里，看超大荧幕播放的《逆战》，火锅都来不及吃我们就在客厅铺床睡着了。起来已经是六点，还来得及看十分钟的满天星。虽然乡村的夜晚和白天一样宁静，但少了阳光的夜晚会让你联想到鬼戏里的鬼，尤其身处在树林和田野之中。

不说了，那些体验我无法用我有限的表达能力呈现出来，就算写得出，你想象的也可能和我的感受有些差异。

 对了，偷偷告诉你，晨鑫在那里可是有头有脸的人物，可谓天不怕，地不怕耶。许多人都认识他，因为他是当地杂货批发商老板的孙子，许多人都是向他购货的。他在那里简直是小皇帝，只要搬出公公的大名就可呼风唤雨。

我爱乡下，我要回去。

乡下的生活真的很简单，生活步调很慢。我喜欢这样的感觉，简朴、无忧还多了份亲切感。这里或许是“一个马来西亚”得到充分体现的地方。不过，与其说这里的民族懂得团结，不如说他们并不曾受到政治的影响。大家在很久以前，在乡村还是乡村的时候都是不分你我的。

This Means War

"Let the best man win."

We were on the way to library to study. However, we headed to Sunway Carnival for "This Means War" instead last Thursday afternoon.

This film is great. It is a 18PL comedy haha. I don't know why it is rated as 18PL in Malaysia, maybe it is because the conversations are very rude and "deep".XD

What will happen when friendship meets love?

Try to imagine the awkward moment when two best friends who are willing to die for each other, fall in love for one lady at the same time. But the case is non of them is going to step back, they decide to strive their best to get the lady, putting aside their friendship, which means war.

The ways they chase the lady are probably the most high-tec and bizarre, using the equipments and skills they have as agents in CIA, they sneak in the lady's house to fix cameras to stalk her. They both have separate teams to help them.

Although the two guys are almost perfect, but one thing they mention in their so called "gentlemen agreement" is no having sex with her and let her choose who she wants to be with at last.

Ya, the key is her choice.

Luckily, their friendship rekindles and they become good partners again.

If I happened to face a situation like this, I think I will step back at once. To me, best friends are always on top of girlfriend, until she becomes my wife. Haha. 

下着雨的星期二下午

原本以为今天会像往常的下午一样炎热；原本以为今天决定不上网；原本以为上了网会做些有用的事情；原本以为不会写博文；原本以为要用英文写，但我的英文已年久失修，不是不敢尝试，只是怎么也下不了手。

上星期五早晨起床后，惯性地伸手拿本应放在桌上的黑框眼镜，却连探了几次都探不到。心想大事不妙，却也懒得理。人，就是这样，刚起床的脑袋就像刚开机的电脑一样，需要时间方能正常操作，还偶尔会当机，譬如说遇上了某个人。我直接去厕所刷洗，背后传来爸爸的声音：“马修，我昨晚用你的电脑时弄断了你的眼镜。”说真的，当时没有反应，心里早就预料到了吧。老爸很粗心，没关系，致命的是我好像得到了他本人的“真传”。他呀，曾经煮食忘了关火就出门。不说了，俗话说家丑不可外扬啊。但这事也不会太丑，我又是在家里面，就让我说完吧。结果呢，我们还没到家就闻到烧焦味，四处烟雾弥漫。原来，火灾现场不是开玩笑的。

至于他怎么弄断的，奇怪，这等神奇的事竟然无法拨动我的好奇心。麻木了吧。所以说，到现在这还是个谜。塞翁失马，焉知非福？我换了新眼镜。但，花了505令吉。天哪！这是我做过就贵的眼镜！得戴个两三年才行。

昨天我亲爱的哥哥带我去买了新的营帐。你们都知道这件事已耽搁很久了，是时候来个了结。哈，说得太认真了些。称我心意的营帐还真的没有，勉强选了一个布满灰尘的。回到家才发现那是两年前进货的，店主却说是去年才进的。算了，不计较。我还蛮喜新厌旧的，但我很想念之前那个青色的帐篷。

好了，叙述了一大堆我要带出的是，班台可拉处过夜之行又复燃啦！好想回到那里的沙滩，住上一个满天星的夜晚，给自己完全的放松，贴近大自然。

骂你费神

 

噢，又离题了。标题为《下着雨的星期二下午》，怎么珠字未提星期二呢。今天距离大马教育文凭考试放榜还有一个月。对，我要说的是“时间过得真快呀！”。我得加快脚步，把我的所有计划付诸行动，虽然最大最大的计划似乎已经将永远被搁置在心里的某一个角落，沉没在脑海的最深处。不过，还是有点期待它被寻见、被捞起的一天。

心里总是这样认为，下个月知道成绩之后我的生命将从此改变、完全的改变。我没预估自己的成绩，人怎么算都算不过上帝的算。原因很简单，上帝看得见你手里拿着570ES型号的计算机，你却不知祂用的是什么。知己知彼嘛。现在的我，深信这一点，至于详情，下次再谈哦，嘿嘿。

上上一段提到露营，我这个星期五决定搭巴士北上到吉打与槟城的边界在震杰家住上一晚，实地体验躺在收了割的稻田上数星星。这算是我第二次的小背包旅行吧。耶！我爱旅行！原来，我很有冒险精神。可是，我很怕热。我怕那炽热的午间太阳，却很想轰轰烈烈的大干一场。很矛盾吧，这就是组合成我的一部分。

咦，好像还是没和星期二挂上关系。应该写写我在下着雨的星期二下午做些什么才符合题目对吧。好吧，原本想到图书馆，结果去理了发。后来想在这难得有云的下午开收音机看看书，惬意惬意地过个慵懒的下午，一个没有英式下午茶的下午，也是一个没有……算了，我自己也接不下去。

还-是-没-有-切-题。

那你说我在下着雨的星期二下午到底干了些什么啊！

我在思考。

思考？思考什么啊！

我所思考的，已经用我最深爱的方块字表达出来，就在上面。

我思，故我在。

Ghost Rider : Spirit of Vengeance



Have you ever made a deal with someone? I am sure you did. Was it a successful deal?What is the most successful deal you ever made? You made the deal with who?Making deal with someone means both parties come to an agreement on something, normally it is beneficial for both.

How about making a deal with Satan? It sounds crazy right. If you happened to have the chance, will you sign it? I think you don't need a PhD to know eventually you will lose if you make a deal with the devil. It is pretty dangerous.

I watched the first Ghost Rider before but hardly remember the plot. All I knew before go in the cinema was the film talks about a guy who rides on a flaming bike ( of course he is burnt himself ).

Johnny Blaze ( Nicholas Cage ) was at the lowest point of his life, his father was dying. At this time Satan came to him and offer him a deal - his father would not die but he will become Ghost Rider. He signed. He is lending out his body for Satan. So when Satan gets into him, he will transform into Ghost Rider. He will kill and seek souls of the people who have sinned.

He won't die, and whatever vehicles he uses, at last it will transfom into a motorcycle. In the cinema, Soo Hou blurted out : " How about, a train? " We laughed, imagining Ghost Rider drives a flaming train.

I personally found this film a little bit evil. It also involves Christianity and Satan, but it doesn't give a nice picture of it. Somehow it will mislead the audience towards Christianity. It is hard to clarify here.

The director tries to add some humour into the film, perharps to cheer up the mood of the film. Got one part a little boy asked Johnny : " What if you want to urinate when you are a ghost rider?" He answered : " It will be flame too." So the boy imagines in his own mind when ghost rider urinates flame, spilling left and right just like what a firefighter will do with a horse. You will definitely laugh when you watch it. =D

Ohya, back to the movie plot. Johnny regreted that he signed the deal. He tried to control and ran away from it. He agreed to help a person in return he will gain back his freedom. He completed his mission ( find the boy and bring it to the person ) and was ready to start his new life, but he was forced to turn into Ghost Rider once again in order to save the boy.

In fact, the demon who possesses Johnny was an angel who was sent to protect mankind. However, the angel was captured by the Satan and became a spirit of vengeance. At last, Johnny could feel the spirit of vengeance is back to the angel again. His red flame turns to blue flame ( more environmental friendly ). The Satan regrets his deal with him.

Besides the blue flame, another lesson I learnt is plastic cannot decay. A character with the power of decay is created by the Satan to fight against Ghost Ride. Whatever natural things he touched, like food, wood and so on, would decay into dust. Hence, he couldn't satisfy his lust for food. What he did was eating something with a plastic bag.XD

Star Wars Episode 1 : The Phantom Menace

Well, I am definitely not a Star Wars fan, believe me, I never watch Star Wars before and I do not know a single thing about Star Wars. My impression on Star Wars was just a black masked man and the laser sword.

This is a 1999 film, they made it 3D and re-screen again. The plot is very interesting, and I am amazed by the director's imagination in creating those futuric spaceships,weapons and transportation. He is creating a different world, a high-tech world and Homo Sapiens are just one of the intelligent living things. On top of that, humans are not dominant in that world, not like on earth we think we overrule everything.

However, you still can see that the world in Star Wars is based on our world. It does not go too far from what we have in our mind. What I mean is the different world is not different enough.For example, the apparel in the film, they dress like ninjas and samurais, or like those Chinese you watch in old drama.

One more thing is the transition styles added between two separate scenes are annoying. Since it is a film produced in 1999, they still have those transitions like fade in, fade out, diagonal pull out and etc.

The 3D effect in this film is not quite nice. I think it is because the original film is not for 3D, so there are less scenes on hitting-you-right-in-front. I took off my 3D glasses in the middle and it showed no difference at all, just the subtitles were blurred. Maybe 3D effect is only added to some part of the film, not all. My friend said it was because our seats were too high, sitting in the middle would be just nice. I wonder is it true.

Over all it is a nice film to enjoy, the story line is good although it is a little bit lengthy. The plot, the cool modern gadgets, the characters and the battles between Jedi and Robots in the universe, are why so many people craze for Star Wars.

告白序

那天震杰说，当你还是单身，会很想要谈个恋爱；有了女朋友，又很想念单身的自由。

每件事情都有正反两面吧，这两面都没有绝对的好与坏，就像世界末日也只有那么一天，也应该像平常一样充实地过。

这一篇本来不想写的，因为写出来会太伊莫，不符合我“正常”的形象。如果我一边播放《那些年》，一边在夜深人静时开着桌灯含着泪写，真的会害怕写出来的东西让人在网路疯传，登上八度空间华语新闻和CNN。我会害臊的。

后来有人鼓励说应该把它完成，因为它是我的心声是吧？

我真的不想让别人误会我无病呻吟咧。写就写吧。

对了，今天好像是情人节。

没有女朋友不代表没有情人，有情人不代表一定要告白。

之前你们应该知道有多少人怂恿我向她告白，说不要错过那场大雨；也有不少人劝我放下吧，时间会冲淡一切。也有人说我都为了她做那么多，她对我有意思，只是她不懂爱情（来，大家一起“哇！！”，说这话的人没有师奶级也有师姐级了吧。）。我不会被这些言论影响自己的判断，如果告白也要看风向标，那告白的意义在哪里？

有一段时期我很想告白，下了很大的决心，几乎有舟我就沉，有斧我就破的那种境界。然而，却什么都没准备。我想大概不需要吧，我需要的只是单独的十秒钟。推销员都很清楚，在面对大众时，他们只有大概三十秒的时间引起人们的兴趣。而我，十秒钟的告白已绰绰有余。十秒种的分配是这样的：两秒深呼吸，两秒看着她，两秒做战前准备，三秒做最后内心挣扎，克服恐惧，最后神圣的一秒以迅雷不及掩耳之势告白（最好她来不及听到我就说完）。这般的轰轰烈烈，很棒对吧？

但是，迟迟等不到时机，也寻不到机会。所以我的士气就像华尔街的股票一样，上上下下。过后，又狠狠地决定不理睬妳了，却被他们奚落。对，我有点累。电话几天没有动静真的很省电。我知道，手机再震一次，只要一次就够，我的防线就会彻底被摧毁。

慧文问为什么我喜欢妳。不好意思，我当时答不出来。从来没有去想过这个问题。是逃避，还是我知道自己没有答案？

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容？

好，就现在想。我喜欢上妳哪里了。

对我来说，妳也太单纯可爱了吧。妳就是单纯到什么都不懂，接近白痴的那种，成绩却又偏偏比我好，做起事来有点可爱。妳好像也很糊涂，并有种英国人享受阳光下午茶时的慵懒。其实妳也蛮豁达的，一副无忧无虑，事不关己的模样。不过，妳突然表现出的成熟让我真的确定我自己非常幼稚。

我太复杂了吧，所以喜欢单纯。在宽柔就读时，老师给我的评语是“思考周密”，所以我常常想很多。我在少年军警里头挣扎了几年，常常陷入《宫心计》般的斗争，我不会说我没有心机，但我不会利用心机来害人。

喜欢妳，我一度气势如虹。妳却让我觉得我的斗争没有意义。等待是行动的一部分，这句话好像很经典，其实在等什么呢？等待被拒绝才甘愿么。

我知道妳受不起别人告白的惊慌。有个很明显的例子了。妳把他闪得远远的。向妳告白，需要冒着成为你的陌生人的危险。我，也舍不得伤害妳。

说真的，告白的目的是什么，是让妳知道我喜欢妳吧。我喜欢妳，妳是非常清楚知道了解的。

在没有选择的情况下，无法轰轰烈烈地告白，只好默默地退场，渐渐消失在妳的视线范围。说不想伤害妳，其实更像给自己的心一个机会-自由。这并不是说明我投降了，只是不再主动地追求（我好像没有开始追），就让一切顺其自然吧。

或许，这也是一种等待。

我，还喜欢妳呢。

对了，情人节快乐快乐。