Sunday 15 July 2012

Some Nights


Yeah, I have another song which sings out my mood and my mind at this stage! I like the beginning part of the song. It is so vibrant and energitic. Somehow it has some resemblance with "We Are Young". It is like shouting out loud to release all your stress, even though I wonder I have any, or I have too much. Like I mentioned before, yelling songs is my favourite, I don't sing. Haha.


Some nights, I stay up cashing in my bad luck

Some nights, I call it a draw

Some nights, I wish that my lips could build a castle

Some nights, I wish they'd just fall off



But I still wake up, I still see your ghost

Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for oh

What do I stand for? What do I stand for?

Most nights, I don't know anymore...

oh woah, oh woah, oh woah oh oh
oh woah, oh woah, oh woah oh oh

Ya, some nights I stay up missing home, but not too long. I miss the days I have meals prepared at the table, and days I do not lay my hands on laundry. Oh, I miss the time I have for newspaper too. I am unaware of what's happening in the world now. Any meteorite hits the earth? Any war is happening? 

By the way, I don't see any ghosts, not yet. Haha. I do wonder what do I stand for, what is my passion. Perhaps being a medical officer is not the perfect choice for me. I can't stand the long working hours which demand much dedication and love. Or perhaps I can, just I underestimated my strength. Oh Lord, show me your will in my life.

This is it, boys, this is war - what are we waiting for?

Why don't we break the rules already?

I was never one to believe the hype - save that for the black and white

I try twice as hard and I'm half as liked, but here they come again to jack my style



And that's alright; I found a martyr in my bed tonight

She stops my bones from wondering just who I am, who I am, who I am

Oh, who am I? Oh, who am I? mmm... mmm...

THIS is war!! I realize I have used many parables to illustrate how my life will be in this 18 months. Er, to be exact, just 17 months. My academic calendar shows that the whole December 2013 is vacation.

This is war, what are we waiting for? To be killed like the tributes in The Hunger Games? This is war, the battle to be won by pens. I can choose to flee to the safe place first, however, at last I need to have face to face combat. I am trying hard to change my study style for 2 weeks dy, apparently I need more time to. I can't slack like in Form 5. I need to be a lot of hardworking. I am too far from my comfort zone. Even so, I don't want to ask "why don't we break the rules already?" one day, I am definitely not the obey-all-rules guy. I need to focus too. FOCUS. If you know what I mean. I can't  afford to be distracted. However, I feel like I will not be able to resist when it comes, watching it invades.

Well, some nights, I wish that this all would end

Cause I could use some friends for a change

And some nights, I'm scared you'll forget me again

Some nights, I always win, I always win...

I do wish that all this would end!!!I miss the days I have no stress. Even though I know well I can't do that for all of my life. Lying on the lush green field seems luxurious now. Don't worry I won't betray my dear friends, I won't use you all for a change for my own good. =) Of course, I am not scared you will forget me. Every night, I am winning. XD

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost

Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for, oh

What do I stand for? What do I stand for?

Most nights, I don't know... (come on)



So this is it? I sold my soul for this?

Washed my hands of that for this?

I miss my mom and dad for this?



No. When I see stars, when I see, when I see stars, that's all they are

When I hear songs, they sound like this one, so come on

Oh, come on. Oh, come on, OH COME ON!



Well, this is it guys, that is all - five minutes in and I'm bored again

Ten years of this, I'm not sure if anybody understands

This one is not for the folks at home; Sorry to leave, mom, I had to go

Who the fuck wants to die alone all dried up in the desert sun?



My heart is breaking for my sister and the con that she call "love"

But when I look into my nephew's eyes...

Man, you wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from...

Some terrible lies...ahhh...



oh woah, oh woah, oh woah, oh oh

oh woah, oh woah, oh woah, oh oh



The other night, you wouldn't believe the dream I just had about you and me

I called you up, but we'd both agree

It's for the best you didn't listen

It's for the best we get our distance... oh...

It's for the best you didn't listen
It's for the best we get our distance... oh...

Let's be courageous to fight for everyday!

Live life to the fullest!!