Memories

When I first heard this song's chorus by Maroon 5, it brought back the memories of my medical school years, with the best friends around me, those happy days.

While I played it over and over at home, Von He asked me:" Aren't you triggered by this song?"

I told him that I only remember those good medical student time ... until I listen to the lyrics carefully.

Here's to the ones that we got

Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not

'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories

Of everything we've been through

Toast to the ones here today

Toast to the ones that we lost on the way

'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories

And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

There's a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain

When I believed in forever, and everything would stay the same

Now my heart feel like December when somebody say your name

'Cause I can't reach out to call you, but I know I will one day, yeah

Everybody hurts sometimes

Everybody hurts someday, aye aye

But everything gon' be alright

Go and raise a glass and say, aye

There's a time that I remember when I never felt so lost
When I felt all of the hatred was too powerful to stop (ooh, yeah)
Now my heart feel like an ember and it's lighting up the dark
I'll carry these torches for ya that you know I'll never drop, yeah

Hence Von He is right. The lyrics trigger me. And then I drowned myself in the song for 2 hours.

Yeah, I still wish you were here, especially when I am entering a new phase of life. I have so much stories to tell you. Sometimes I do imagine calling you when I am back after a long day, telling you those interesting non-medical things I encounter during the day. For example, there's this one new houseman who is 4 years older than us, behaving in a very weird way.

There's so much more to tell you, so much so much more. To tell you how is Kuching all about, to tell you exciting stories. But we are not, and will not share a life together anymore. Perhaps this is the real 'new life' I am entering, a life without you.

Maybe you will be amazed that I started going to bars, influenced by Angie. You did say you wanted to go with me 3 years ago. We never made it, due to my early sleeping habit. But now I sleep at 2 am, so I could still be out and not sleepy. Yeah, I shall toast to our past, hoping the day I will move on, but the drinks might bring back all the memories and you.