Oppenheimer

著名导演Christopher Nolan的作品，从来不让人失望。

这部电影上映前，我已去查阅原子弹之父的历史背景。我当时很好奇，导演要怎么把这个充满争议性的人物的传记浓缩成三个小时的电影。结果，除了他的晚年和童年，他传奇的一生都栩栩如生地展现在大银幕前。

这个导演的作品，大多以“烧脑”著称。然而对我而言，这一部“烧脑”的原因是要很专注地聆听冗长的对白（澳洲的电影院里没有字幕）。说真的，如果我不事先查阅其背景，看起电影来会更加困难。虽然看到最好我的眼皮已经渐渐低垂，但仍然觉得这是一部极好的电影。

电影的特效和采用两个时间轴叙事的手法，让一个历史人物的传记显得生动。这是一部属于成年人的人物传记。小时候，我所翻阅的人物传记譬如说《爱迪生传》和《爱因斯坦传》等都过于“青涩”。也许那些刊物为了“儿童适宜”都简化了。不过，有哪个儿童可以理解黑暗的二战和不同的政治理念呢？从前那些传记的主要目的是教导儿童优良的价值观；没机会深造的爱迪生秉着毅力和好奇心发明了电灯泡。爱迪生的发明电灯泡后的一些事迹，我是在中学时才懂的。

导演的另一个特点，是他的电影都没有直接的寓意。每个观众，都有自己的体会。对与错，黑与白。在真正的世界里，从来不分明。如果他不先发明原子弹，原子弹迟早也会被其他人发明。小时候以为贝尔发明电话，事实上只是他早先一步注册发明权而已。那“其他人”是谁，没人知晓，但世界历史一定会被改写。

另一点是，我们是以现代的角度去评价历史。当时的人们，无论再有前瞻性，也不能预测未来。他们只能凭着当时的讯息，做出最佳的决策。我们目前的生活也一样，唯有根据我们所有的变数好好衡量后，做出当下最好的决定。以后的结果，是好是坏，也不必觉得太惋惜了。

《东方快车谋杀案》

2017年最后一个月的第一天，我和宝贝阔别三年一起观赏了这部悬疑片。由于这几年我们能够相聚的时间极短，所以电影观赏都在约会时不被考虑。值得一提的是，这部电影也不是纯粹为了约会而观赏的，我们都喜爱这一类的侦探故事。

故事里的主角是名侦探赫丘勒·白罗。原来除了福尔摩斯，小说界还有几位名侦探。上网查了一查，发现白罗是比福尔摩斯后期的。福尔摩斯主要活跃于十九世纪末，白罗是二十世纪初。两人的国籍也不同，福尔摩斯是英国人，百罗是比利时人。庆幸的事两者没有同在一时期，否则我会很纠结世界怎么可以同时有两位大名鼎鼎的侦探。

故事的大纲在这里就不说了，结局会让人感到意外。除了带领观众解决问题，故事也探讨一些哲理。这是我第一次接触白罗这人物，对他的认识不够深，却可以从这一集中看出他的个性鲜明。名侦探们通常都是百战百胜，整个系列中可能只有一两次需要绞尽脑汁，或者摸不着头脑。不巧，这一集就让白罗陷入了瓶颈。

刚刚说提的故事哲理，就是世事并不是非黑即白。我们该如何在灰色地带穿行，这需要经验的累积和智慧的升华。宝贝从影院出来后，就到书局买了两本白罗的小说看。看来，我也有新的假期计划了。

医学院十周年庆典

Dunkirk

敦克尔（Dunkirk）是法国西南部的一个沿海小镇。世界第二次大战开始将近一年，那里发生了一场振奋人心的军事活动，是二战的转捩点之一。那时，大约400000英法联军被纳粹军队困于敦克尔。基于有些原因，以为胜券在握的纳粹军队停止进攻。因此，英法联军拥有足够的时间策划一次大规模地海路撤兵行动。尽管如此，当代英国首相丘吉尔心底只预算可以拯救大约30000名士兵。许多艘民用船只参与了这此行动。1940年5月26日至6月4日之间，一共有超过300000名士兵成功撤离已被沦陷的法国，堪称一大军事奇迹。如果当年这一大批的士兵被敌军歼灭，同盟国军队就无法有足够的军力在四年后于诺曼底登陆展开反击。

由Christopher Nolan 所执导的《敦克尔》并没有让我失望。片中，他从海、陆、空这三个角度来叙述这一起英雄事迹。我觉得故事并没有所谓的主角，没有沿着一个人物而发展，因此看起来比较像纪录片。电影刻画出那三个不同位置的情况。等待被营救的陆兵是何等地渴望和惧怕；受命从空中提供掩护的空军是何等地不懈和勇敢；自愿参与营救行动的公民是何等地爱国和人道。虽然电影里的对白不多，却有许多细节足以让人深思。其中一点是，虽然当年的报章都赞扬那次的行动，今天的人们也为此庆祝，但是电影里表现了打败仗回国的士兵的想法。他们可能觉得自己让国家和人民失望了。

电影成功地把我带到当下，身心灵感受到的不是历史课本上战争的残酷。这是一起真实事件，有真实的士兵和真实的性命威胁。我可以同理士兵们的惧怕，可以体会到那个年代的绝望。这些体悟都是历史书籍无法带来的。这样，我们才能够珍惜和平及避免战争。当我离开影院时，心情是沉重的。我尝试想象假设我是其中一名士兵，在马来半岛或世界的任何地方，我是否有机会生存下来，我的人生会是怎样？当然，这没有分晓。只盼望下一代能够真正明白和平得来不易，战争要避而远之。

《蜘蛛侠：英雄归来》

好久没在这里聊电影了。这可能是因为近来我对电影没有太多的论述吧。这一部属于漫威英雄系列的电影，我当然不可错过。

话说我和一群朋友看了这部电影之后对其褒贬不一，我想这要看你从哪个角度出发了。

我喜欢这一部的蜘蛛侠，有许多原因。第一点是，蜘蛛侠的装备太酷了。我最喜欢的超级英雄是钢铁侠，原因也是他那些先进的设备和武器。这一集，蜘蛛侠的紧身衣装备是由钢铁侠一手打造的，所以运用起来也帅气十足。我有些朋友就对此不满。他们认为蜘蛛侠应该是蜘蛛侠，不应该太过依赖科技的发达。

第二点，这一集的蜘蛛侠省略了他如何被变种蜘蛛咬伤然后成为蜘蛛侠的过程。我觉得大家对于蜘蛛侠如何获得超能力已经了若指掌，如果再一次重复会显得烦闷。除此之外，这一次蜘蛛侠的年龄设定在十五岁，显然是太小了些却也摆脱了彼得·帕克是一名记者的框框。且外，人物的心智和个性塑造也贴近他这个年龄，不带有成熟的英雄本色。蜘蛛侠也比之前的显得乐观开朗，不会郁郁寡欢。

总而言之，这集的蜘蛛侠和之前的人物故事不同，让我觉得焕然一新。还有一点，电影里头除了蜘蛛侠还有钢铁人和美国队长，让人觉得这个世界充斥着超级英雄是很平常的事。

六弄咖啡馆

去年我错过了这部影片，时隔快一年了才偶然想起而在线上观看。当时听友人聊这部电影，已知道其悲哀的剧情。因此，在观看的当儿我一度不想继续，为的是避开那忧伤的结局。当看到小绿和心蕊的感情渐渐出现问题时，我便把剧情跳到结局了。后来想想既然都看了一大半，应该继续把它看完。所以呢，我以快一倍的速度从电影的中段继续看。

青春爱情片来来去去的剧情大同小异，就如电影所说：“类似的青春，不一样的人生”。每个人都从类似的青春期长大成熟。虽然如此，这个故事还是有值得深思的地方。我看到的是萧伯智和关闵绿的友情。能够有一位由始至终都陪伴在身边的好朋友，是多么庆幸的一件事。真正的好朋友不一定品性完美，却看重彼此间的情谊并愿意为你挺身而出。想想自己会不会像萧伯智那样，为好友赴汤蹈火。只可惜他们之间的这一份友谊，无法阻止关闵绿跳海自杀。看了同一部僵尸片两次的关闵绿，也没有被激励要勇敢活下去。

其次，当然是要谈爱情这样东西。说真的，青春爱情片的远距离恋爱都以失败告终。这激励了我一定要成功跨越这个挑战，好让大家知道二十一世纪的远距离也只是鼻尖和荧幕的距离而已。哈，话是这样说没错，但是有时没有拥抱太久会让人抓狂。从电影中得到的爱情教训，我这几年来自己领悟了。爱情不是你看你多努力，而是要考虑对方要什么。自己一味地以为自己付出了很多，到头来只是错误的投资。还有，可怕的不是距离，而是思想上的差异。如果彼此对人生的追求不同，在一起又有什么好处呢？

或许有时候妳会觉得我不在乎妳。我想一大部分是由于地理位置的不同，及我对妳的科系一知半解，使我无法完全体会妳的生活。至于那一小部分，是我没有耐心吧。哈哈哈。

Rogue One

As a new Star Wars fan, this highly anticipated new film did not disappoint me. Perhaps my enthusiasm towards Star Wars isn't great enough to be called a fan, I simply love great movies and stories. To be honest, I have only watched the 7 movies and not other animation stories. Hence, the only small details or so called "Easter eggs" I caught on screen were the appearance of R2-D2 and C-3PO and Princess Leia. 

When I watched episode IV last time, I remembered it was narrated that the Rebel stole the plan of the Death Star at a great cost. I never wonder and infer how they got it, I thought every story must have a beginning and you can't possibly trace all the stories to a starting point. So I thought that was the given background and no questions raised. After finishing the movie, I have the "eureka" moment that I know what happened before the episode IV. And also what the phrase "at a great cost" really means. The entire crew of the Rogue One sacrificed themselves to get the plan, and also those rebels who arrived to support them. I guess it is quite rare to have all the main characters die in the movie. I thought they would have found a way to escape from the planet. However, their deaths somehow make the movie more realistic and touching, and we have to remember that they are not the main characters of the series.

Another thing I noticed in this film is, besides the Chinese actor Donnie Yen, the element of humour. I don't quite remember if there are jokes in the original 6 films, apart from the conversations of C-3PO which are funny.

Overall, I love the story and this film. I anticipate more stories from Star Wars, Some say Star Wars is always political, maybe this is true, and I don't see any problem with that. Movie is an art itself, and an art is the way the artist express himself. "The Rebel is built on hope", it seems like this is the connection to the title of episode IV: A New Hope, but it can be interpreted in other ways. Hope is what we cling on, when we face oppositions and challenges.

Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them

I was a Harry Potter fan. I started to read the first book of the series in primary four, about 3 years after I watched the movie on the big screen. I must admit I was very much attracted to the story plot, and the books were probably the only English novels I touched during that time. I guessed I have read the first and second books twice. The entire Harry Potter fever peaked at the last book, and slowly faded until part two of the last movie. I would say I grow out of it. Until the emergence of this new franchise.

Many details of the entire story I do not remember, including Newt Scamander as the author of the textbook "Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them". Though I remember vaguely there is such a textbook which Harry studied. I do not remember he appears in the Chocolate Frog Cards as well. But that's the surprise, doesn't it? That many of the small tiny details are actually hidden somewhere throughout the series. 

I would say it is a nice movie, at least to me. In a way it satisfies my curiosity of the wizarding world which Rowling created. It fills the knowledge gap as what happened before the age of Voldemort and Harry Potter. And the setting of 1920s adds another sense of mystery to me as the world back then was absolutely different from the world I live in now.

I guess it's every primary school kid's dream to receive an enrolment letter from Hogwarts. But as a kid I used to gauge how big is Hogwarts. My primary school had a total of 2000 students from primary one to six. It seems like there is just a handful of students in Hogwarts, far less than the crowd depicted on the stadium during a Quidditch match. It is also the only school in Britain. The population of the wizards and witches was quite a problem to me at that age as it didn't seem to make sense in my wild imagination. In the series we know there are other schools across the globe, it made me wondered was there a Chinese school in China and how about South East Asia. In this movie we finally have a glimpse of the wizarding community in America. They refer muggles as non-mag. And perhaps you might not need a passport but you need to apply for permit of a wand. Besides, there are others magical creatures apart from the ones introduced in the series.

Next, I am particularly fond of Eddie Redmayne in this movie as Newt Scamander. He gives that innocent looking face and the care-free spirit of a young adult pursuing his passion. I notice that he always bends his neck at an angle, is this the side effect from portraying Stephen Hawking? In the movie, Newt is very passionate about all the magical creatures, he will be a great vet in our world. That motivates me to be passionate about what I am doing now. Or perhaps the courage to pursue what I really wanted to do. 

As I am reminded of the characters in the book series, there are indeed a lot of possibilities where each character's story can be expanded. There are many notable ones and also many less known ones such as Newt Scamander. Really looking forward to more stories even though there are some in Pottermore already. There will be another 4 more movies in this franchise, can't wait to see how the story unfolds!

X 战警陪伴的周末

上个星期四就在网上订购了最新的《X战警》戏票，满心期待了一个星期，终于在昨天观赏了这部电影。就如我几年前的发现一样，只要在短期内有个令人期待的事物，就能够保持愉快的心情。可是，如此地盼望偶尔有让我整个人变得怠慢。所以我便迷迷糊糊得过且过地过了一个心情。看完电影之后呢，目标达成，有点空虚，是时候再寻找下个能够让人向往的日子了。

先来谈谈这部电影吧。也许是太过期盼而造成要求过高，电影没想象中精彩，不过还是算不错。前半段剧情的发展节奏很好，到后半段就有一些仓促了。我最不满意的是最后的打斗场面。虽然坏蛋最终会被打败是事实，但史上最强的变种人就这样暂时被歼灭不好看。如果坏蛋的跟随者没有良心发现改邪归正，好人就会一败涂地了。电影最后所带出的一点是，团结力量大，再强大的一个敌人都抵挡不住较弱小的好人们。话说回来，这套规律还要看哪方是好人，因几十个坏蛋一起上阵还是一样被叶问打得落花流水。

好了，谈谈我的周末。由于教授把星期一的临床学习课提前了，所以我星期日不必到医院找已经被烦透了的病人聊聊天，检检查。在医院溜达了几个月，我讶异自己还是会很难和病人开始交谈，特别是他们有亲友的时候。也许心底清楚自己是带有目的的，所以才会尴尬。下一课是在下个星期五，这表示我可以不去医院好几天，心里是开心的。因此，我又有一些懒散了，好像完全享受假期，看看美剧和重温电影。目前，念书和玩乐的拉锯战还持续上演中。

是时候告诉大家，其实这个周末不会有X战警来我家作客教我打坏蛋。是的，自己也有点失望，不过老实说我比较希望见到复仇者们。如果真的想要X战警陪伴我过周末，就好好重看之前的电影吧，再上网研究漫画里的剧情，增进对变种人的了解。哎呦，如果我念厚厚的医学课本有这一番干劲就好了。这个周末，研究人体的构造还是变种人的特性，该选择哪一项呢？

英雄内战

看了《美国队长之内战》，觉得整体上还不错。虽然剧情和漫画故事发展不同，但还可以让人接受。在大家都熟悉英雄打坏蛋的框架外让英雄自己厮杀，体裁鲜明而且有一点真实感。朋友之间会翻脸，英雄们也有意见不合的时候。

英雄互相对抗的背后，政治是主要因素。我看英雄电影或动作片的时候就常常觉得一座城市就这样被摧毁，市井小民真的是好可怜。如果有一天他们真的在槟城开战，槟威大桥就会遭殃，升旗山也会燃烧。多年来的辛苦建设就这样毁于一旦，这时有多少人会为英雄欢呼啊。这一集就交代了这个问题。漫威世界里的人民开始了抗议，导致联合国要管制英雄们的行动。因此，和世界上所有的政策一样，意见的分歧实在难免。

又是一个没有绝对对错的场面。接受联合国委员会管制或许可以让人民安心，不过代价是英雄失去了自由，而委员会一定有政治目的，他日变卦了又是另一个问题。这场对抗的最终结果是两败俱伤。

电影延伸的意义是体制的问题。世界上没有一个系统是完美的，我们只能在不完美中自己权衡。如果英雄们不要向任何人负责，就要有像美国队长般正义的领导，才不会日益猖狂偏离维护地球和谐的使命。问题在于真实世界里有多少个美国队长，可以时时刻刻自我鞭策不改初衷。就算身为美国队长，大家也会质疑谁赋予他如上帝般的审判权力。当然，如果接受了一个体制的管辖，就会有被摆布的可能，除非组织也清廉公正。

所以，我们都在为自己认为是最好的理想奋斗。结果是如何，在做决定之前没人知晓。在英雄世界里，我选择支持美国队长，虽然我喜欢钢铁人。我相信美国队长会保持正义感。

我的时代

好久没有谈电影了。其实本身也不是什么影评专家，只是爱好是看电影。喜欢看电影，却又不想仅仅当个普通的观众，因此会努力地“鉴赏”电影。几年过去了，鉴赏能力并没有提高多少，只是年龄增加了，看所有事物的角度都不一样了。虽然说不上成熟了许多，至少没那么幼稚了。

原本不想看《我的少女时代》这一部电影。看了预告片，当下觉得又多了一部欺骗少女眼泪的爱情电影，而且和心中的《那些年》基本上是同一题材，算是女版的吧。考试后还是被朋友拉去看了。很多朋友的眼泪都被骗走了，我把我的眼泪守护得很好。

老实说，这部电影还不错，只要不要去想它与现实有多脱节。除了和《那些年》及《等一个人咖啡》一样有搞笑元素，电影的节奏和故事的叙述方式都很好。我很喜欢台湾电影的画面质感和场景设计，看起来很美丽也很舒服。如果要作比较，《我的少女时代》会比《那些年》好看一些，却无法与我产生共鸣，可能是性别的缘故。《那些年》是以男孩的角度出发，《我的少女时代》则是女孩的青春。除此之外，还可能是因为有多场群殴的戏吧。

看到男主角的死党在大海溺毙，是我眼泪差点失守的时候。原因是，我联想到五年前的龙舟事件。罹难者都与我同龄，当中还有我爸童年好友的儿子。男主角因此不堪打击而堕落成校园恶霸，我不晓得但年的事件对罹难者的朋友们有什么样的影响。这再次提醒我生命的可贵，活着就有希望。

总结来说，《那些年》属于我的时代。至于我的青春，虽然没有很热血，也算没有白过。其中一个原因是我中学都在艳阳下步操，把皮肤都晒黑了，中学我没白过。校园恶作剧我干得多了，在科学室燃放自制烟雾弹，放学后擅自生火烧烤庆生，穿着体育服翘课逃学（被芽芽看见），也追了一个女孩三年，还有数不尽的傻事，就差我没挥拳打人。如果现在要我去干这些事，恐怕不行了。终于明白那些年会去做那些事情，最大的因素是青春。那是荷尔蒙和热血混合的结果，是青春的颜色。

 再一次向我的青春致敬。

My Favourite Scenes in Avengers 2

I have watched twice for Avengers: Age of Ultron. Apparently it is one of my favourite films. I just love to see how different superheroes with their distinct personalities interacting with each other. My favourite character is non other than the Ironman. To me, the advancement in technology is more appealing than any in built super powers. That's why I like Batman too. But Batman is darker than the humourous Ironman. And I always think myself is humourous.

In Avengers, each superheroes with their distinct characters and abilities, have to work together to achieve a common goal. It is not easy. In real life, it is the same scenario for us to work in a group. Some people have to compromise, some people have to put down their pride. Each one of them have their own weaknesses as well, which are easily manipulated as portrayed in the movie. We have flaws, regardless of how hard we strive for perfection.

Appreciate the friends who accept fully of who you are. Treasure them, and embrace them just like how they have hugged you tightly. You can't have all the world to agree with you. There are people who will stand with you in good and in bad times. Recognized that there will be same people who don't like you naturally, just like you would dislike some people at the first sight.

There are two scenes which I love in the Avengers 2. Can't really explain why but I just like it. I like that all superheroes are fighting together side by side.

I like how they eventually lined up together when they were scattered across the jungle.

  

This is the one when all of them were trying to protect the core.

从模仿游戏到少年时代

好像很久没评论电影了。也许称不上什么专业“评论”，所写的也是自己非常不专业的观后感罢了。

昨天和嘉文一口气看了两部。由于没有一家戏院同时放映这两部电影，因此我们需要“转院”。本来计算好有足够的时间“转院”，却失算了，还好抵达第二场时电影刚刚好开始。

《模仿游戏》改变自历史事迹，是人物传记影片。观看之前我已查看了相关资料，毕竟我对历史是有着浓厚的兴趣的。在好奇心的驱使下，我也了解了二战时期纳粹认为无法破译的密码Enigma是怎么操作的。在这里简单说明一下：常见的密码如果原文是两个相同的字母在翻译成密码之后也将会是另两个相同的字母或符号，破译员可因此作为线索破译。但Enigma则不然，两个相同的字母加密后会是两个不同的字母。对方要解码只能利用有同样设置的仪器才可以还原原文。我在曼切斯特时还不知道这一号人物所以错过了观光他的纪念馆。再来，近年来我非常喜爱那位演员，也就是饰演二十一世纪福尔摩斯的Benedict Cumberbatch。喜爱他的原因除了他的演技不错以外，还有他那一张实在很特别的面孔。

首先，故事的主人翁——图灵就让我们再次看见了情商比智商重要的道理。图灵是个数学天才，逻辑能力强到无法从人们的对话中听出笑话，根本没有幽默感。这使他无法和周围的人们好好相处。不出所料，他的童年必定遭人排挤和欺负，只有一个男生愿意当他的后盾。我猜测这可能导致他有同性恋倾向。

再来，原来二战除了要纪念牺牲的士兵们和歌颂贤明的国家领导人，还有一些默默付出的人们也作出了贡献。除了故事的主角成功制造出一个机器破译密码而对二战胜利有功之外，我想举国上下的人民都是功不可没的。他们包括妇女响应政府的号召在各个工厂工作，帮助制造军火和布料等等。和平，是多么令人渴望。

第三，还有就是阴谋论。这个世界真的太复杂了，不止让没有幽默感的图灵招架不住，也让我受不了。片中，英国情报局MI6有干涉一些事情，由于他们的机构是国家机密，因此他和团队辛苦制造的解码机器也在丘吉尔的命令下全部销毁。这让我不禁想到这个世界上有多少起大事背后的真相到底是什么，又由谁操控。就拿发生在我国的空难事件来说就好了。一架失踪了，一架被击落。又有谁知道真相是什么？就如电影里，图灵破译了密码却没马上告知上司，而牺牲了几艘载有人民的轮船。他的理由是不想因此让纳粹怀疑他们破译了密码而更换更难破译的密码，他是为大局着想。现今有多少人又成了维护“大局”旗帜下的牺牲者？

最后，就是有关同志的问题了。大家对此课题已有激烈的讨论，我也不多说了。说真的，图灵的辩白具有说服力。怎样才算是“思考”？他说，不能因为想法不同而否定了别人思考的能力。

赶看下一场电影，也就是《少年时代》时，心情还没从前一部中平复。想看的原因是因为电影拍了十二年，整个团队如此用心和有毅力，就算不怎么精彩也值得我入场支持。

我第一个想法是若有人找我拍这样的电影该多好啊。自己从六岁到十八岁的模样都会被录了下来，还有专人帮忙剪辑成电影，就算没有片酬也没关系。两个小时多的电影用十二年拍，每年应该不会花太长的时间，不会影响学业。

好了，说说这部电影。一个单亲男孩的六岁到十八岁，他和我本身相比有一半的相似吧。我也曾经转学几次啊，也有自己的烦恼和叛逆。不过，他来得要可些。我没被欺负过，也没经历家暴。

这部电影让我看见了一个男孩如何在美国社会中成长。里头有些活动，例如说野外露营，是我童年也很想去做的事情，只不过没人带我去。我小学自己就在庭院搭了帐篷住一晚。

看了过后，我不会很希望自己在那样的环境长大，也不会对自己的成长过程有什么不满。西方人可能比较早熟和独立，但他们拥有的价值观就不会是我向往的。我们实在不明白他们为什么可以不孝顺父母的同时他们也实在不明白我们为何这样敬重父母。这当中或许没有对错，只是我们也不需要太过崇洋，取人之长，补己之短就好。

我自己的少年时代，有朝一日我会在庭院的大树下向我的孩子们娓娓道来。

Movies

I sort of starting to return to my previous routine, which is paying a visit to the cinema on every Friday. By previous I mean 2 years ago. Since I started A levels I developed the habit of watching a movie on every Friday, whether it is in the cinema or on my Vaio, cuddling someone. However, months later the routine was stopped, perhaps due to the stress of perceived tough examinations and lack of appealing films.

This time, I come to a point which I must squeeze the movie slot in even though I have a very tight schedule. You can say the condition is desperate, or in a more negative sense, chronic. Why. Is it to release stress? I would feel even more stressful after watching one. I don't know what am I searching for. Again, I am lost. I hate to have such Friday routine again, I just don't want to do stuff the way I did last time. I do laundry on a different day, I avoid taking public bus, I cut my nails on weekdays. I even try to phase out the clothes I used to wear. Psychologically, I am hoping that with a different routine I could block out some memories.

Maybe subconsciously I am searching for meaning. My mind and body wander aimless following the crowd. To the lecture theater, to the cafeteria. 

Movies provide an escape from the real life. So often I want to let go and run away. But the problem is, where can I run to. When each movie is coming to the end, my heart is filled with emptiness again.

I came to a conclusion that some wounds can never be healed, move on and live with it is the only way. However, I am not acclimatized to carry it with me yet. Anyway, I am preparing for the day to come, it could be my worst day ever in this year, maybe slightly better than the day I had earlier this year. Garnering all the courage and be there for you on that day. Sometimes you just couldn't let someone down, even if it means you might not have any pieces of you left. Just buck it up.     

The Fault In Our Stars

It has been quite a long time since I wrote about a movie. This movie is about the love story between two pernicious cancer patients. Frankly, I almost cried when I was watching the movie. But many thoughts came after the movie while I reflected on the story.

Everyone has problems. This is sort of a truth I arrive at after contemplating about life this year. And regardless of the intensity of the problem, as in no matter it is big or small, it deserves full attention and help to be solved. Just as there is no standard answer in life, some problems cannot be solved, you have to live with it. However, there is a possibility which the intensity of the problem can be reduced to a minimum level. The emotions elicited by the problems can be alleviated by tools. One easy method is to count your blessings, to be thankful for all things. I still have a healthy body, I have eyes ears nose mouth limbs which are functioning.

I do not have cancer.

Yes, thinking about the less fortunate will make us grateful towards what we own. However, we will soon forget about it and start to magnify our own problems. Looking at the physically challenged we are glad that we have legs but we start to lament that we don't have shoes. Perhaps this is our nature. I am working on it too, constantly reminding and be thankful that I am well blessed in many areas. This is real tough, as I am always blinded by my grief, self-wallowing in my loss.

Come back to the movie. If you are terminally ill will you desire to love and to be loved? There is not much worries for healthy individuals to start a relationship, but it requires a lot of courage and confidence for patients like them in the movie.

When you know you are dying, what is your fear. The thought of Augustus Waters best represents mine. How will I be remembered. Like him, I wanted to be great, to stand out of the 7 billion. Finally Hazel Grace enlightened him, and me too. I often hear a whisper in my mind, to achieve greatness one must be brought low first. Just like the bible says, those who want to be the head must be the tail, and the tail will be the head.

Okay.

Life of Pi

众所周知，马条喜欢看电影。

我最喜欢去的地方莫过于电影院。虽然现今看电影未必要到电影院，但就是很喜欢在一个与世隔绝的幽暗礼堂里享受两小时的视觉飨宴。那超大荧幕，那超强音响，对整个过程增添了无穷的乐趣。其二，电影一上映就往里面跑，可以拥有先睹为快的优越感，也不怕被朋友揭晓结局而坏了好事。其三，看电影如看小说，除非是真的一级棒，否则不会看第二次。因此买票入场也算是支持知识版权的文明行为。

我曾经说过，近年来的电影太多，好电影已经越来越少了。爱看电影的我在离开影院后不时会有莫名的空虚感，觉得那些过于虚构的剧情且充斥着暴力轰炸的场面没有营养，看了抒发你的压力，却也不觉中吞噬了你的灵魂。因此，除非真的大有来头，我不会接近为了拍戏而拍戏的电影。

由此看来，当初海报上方有一只老虎头，下方是一艘舢板里一只老虎和一个人的《少年Pi的奇幻漂流》没有吸引我的眼球。当时并不知道是李安导演的。如果知道，就算觉得不是很好看我也会入场支持捧场。毕竟，李安和宇安之间存在着一种微妙关系。

就是上面那张海报，完全浇灭我观赏它的欲望。从海报看来，我以为少年应该是自小和老虎青梅竹马，然后不知何故一起漂流，也许最后老虎病死。整部戏应该是叙说人虎之间的情感，意在赚取大家的眼泪。

不过，后来李安得了大奖，我才知道错过了在大荧幕上欣赏该片的时机。前天，趁着考试间一个星期的空档，在黑夜的笼罩下观看了不可思议的漂流故事。

看完了以后，心底最深处散发出一种热流，那是久违的感动。呆呆的看着荧幕，脑子里思索、处理所领悟到的。这部电影不只一次的带我进入深层的思考。到目前为止我还在消化和提炼我所领悟的。这个过程还会继续。

一开始，少年Piscine（法语，意思是游泳池）如何把一直被取笑的名字有创意地改成Pi，并且把Pi的所有小数点都写在黑板上而成为学校的风云人物已激励人心。他的勇敢，他的思想，注定他会有不同凡响的人生。虽然我不赞同他同时信奉兴都教、基督教和回教，但至少他相信有一位更高的上帝存在，并且在漂流过程中坚定信仰。

他信奉科学的老爸深怕他过于迷信，他还是坚持自己的信仰。这需要无比的勇气和自主能力。

他爸爸对他的管教深刻的体现家庭教育的重要。从小在父亲经营的动物园长大，他很想近距离和老虎接触，因而偷偷拿了肉引诱老虎出来。被父亲发现后，父亲大发雷霆，不惜牺牲一只小羊让他目睹老虎的凶悍和血腥。就是这个深刻的教训，在船难后漂流时救了他一命。父母说的话未必正确，但身为子女的我们应该顺服他们，不可故意叛逆。到最后，我们一定能够明白他们当时的言语和教训。

看这部电影时，我不断地在想，不断地站在主角的位子想。如果我遭遇船难，刹那间变成孤儿，自己是生是死还不得而知，我还会有生存意志吗。或许，生存是生物的本能。求生的紧迫让人没有闲情去哀悼。独自一人在太平洋漂流已经够可怜了，如果陪伴你的是一只随时会把你变成盘中餐的老虎呢？在加上夜晚的黑暗寒冷和白天的炙热阳光，一句话，没有亲自身陷其中你无法知道你会怎么做。人有无限的可能，无论你怎么推演都不准确。

对了，我还有上帝。Pi在叙述他的故事时就有说到，他的故事是让你相信有神。救生帆上的手册有提到：不可失去盼望。对于基督徒，我们的盼望建立在上帝。我想，如果我在漂流，这真是个经历上帝大能的机会。我不敢说我会在如此逆境中欢呼喜乐，感谢上帝。不过我知道全能上帝就如Pi所说在看顾我，必带给我平安。此外，我可以夜夜观看繁星。哈。

其实，人生何尝不是一个奇幻的漂流？我们会遭遇大风大浪，而且并不知到底何时靠岸。最重要的是不要丧失盼望，坚定信心。所发生的一切，无不在上帝的预料之中。

故事的最后，出现了另一个版本。相信哪一个版本见仁见智。纵观整个故事的发展，我觉得第二个版本，也就是比较残忍的，比较有可能发生。

Premium Rush

Fixed gear. No brakes. Can't stop.

It is an awesome movie! After all the violent action movies like The Expendables 2 and sci-fi films like Total Recall, you would like to have some real-life-happening stories to view, to hear and to feel in the city.

Well, Premium Rush is definitely a good one. Not only the story line is unique and different, the way the director tells story is also new and impressive. You might have watched cars chasing after cars, jets rushing after jets, jets chasing after cars or cars chasing after motorcycles. What about a car chasing after a bike? And bikes chasing after bikes as well?

I don't even know there is a job called bicycle messengers exist on earth, at this age, until I have watched this movie. You see, we have courier service, email and so on, why would we need messengers. The case is, when all those high tech stuff fail, you still have back ups. This is probably the best job for the cycling-lovers. Haha. 

By the way, this is the fifth movie we watched together. Too bad, CIMB Debit Card buy 1 free 1 promotion ends today. XD

Happy Independence Day! I would like to watch Premium Rush for a second time. See ya guys, can't stay long here. =P

The Amazing Spiderman

It have been a long time since I post about movies. Haha. I still watch movies, but recently my mood to blog is overcame by laziness.

Yah, I just watched Spidey last friday with Wee Rock alone. I know many of you may have watched it much earlier but guess what, we watched it by RM4 per person in GSC. Yeah. Thanks to CIMB debit card, we enjoyed the buy one free one promotion.

The story line is like more or less same. A weak college boy got bitten by a spider, then his strength increases and he could climb walls. His uncle died because of him letting go a criminal. He wears a mask and goes after the criminals to take revenge. 

Even so, I like the amazing spiderman more than the previous one. This time Peter Parker is a lot more vibrant and playful, he is not that old dull boy slaving away in college any more. And he will have bruises too after a fight, showing that he is also human. 

The lizard monster reminds me a lot of the dinosaurs in Ultraman. Lol.

The Avengers

First of all, wish you a very happy Labour Day!

When I was a little boy I always thought, aren't most of the super heroes live in the same New York city? But why they would never encounter each other when they are fighting crimes? While Spiderman is using all his strength to stop a train, where is Superman?

The Avengers answers the questions. This film finally brings many superheroes to work together as a team. Just the thought that the superheroes will save the world together is cool enough. Even though not all of the Marvel superheroes are in this film, it is still great, since too many cooks spoil the soup right.

Each of the superheroes potrayed in The Avengers has their own 'individual' films. I never make it to watch all of them but I watched The Ironman and The Hulk before. One thing I never knew is the Hulk is one of the superheroes too. Haha. My impression towards the Hulk is he is always destroying, bringing dentrimental effect to the city. However, I think he is the hero in this avengers as he kills the most of the enemies.

Ohya, seeing how the superheroes interact is a great fun. Each one of them has their own disctinct characters and ego. It is absolutely hard for them to cooperate. Just like a company with many talented people, a chinese proverb says a moutain cannot have two tigers. But with a little 'push', it can be done. Just like the Avengers, when they are irritated and have the same mind on doing something.

I will watch a second time in cinema. XD

Battleship

At first I thought this movie would be like one of those meaningless catasthrophic movies like Skyline or The Darkest Hour. That's why I refuse to buy a ticket to walk in the cinema, until last friday Jeffrey and I went to GSC One Utama to watch it in order to fill up our afternoon time.

I was wrong.

This movie is superb! They have a nice starting telling the audience how and why the aliens will come to the earth - NASA sent a message to the outer space first from Hawaii. Unlike The Darkest Hour, the invisible aliens just popped up out of the blue.

5 alien spaceships reached the earth but 1 communication ship is broken into pieces when they enter the atmosphere. So the other four stationed at Pacific Ocean and one is sent to the Hawaii Islands to 'borrow' the communication system.

How the navy fights against the aliens is also well reasoned, not too fantasy nor too fake.

Many lessons can we youngsters learn from it too. Even though the aliens are seemed invincible, the captains from different nations are still willing to think a way to defeat them and to protect their countries.

One thing I like about the main character is the way he thinks. When his destroyer is shattered by the aliens, he thinks of using an old battleship, which is used as a museum at Hawaii. His crew members think he is insane to use such lousy battleship to fight against the aliens with advance weapons. Through their cooperation and strategy from The Art of War, they wipe all the aliens off the surface of the earth.

Ya, it is not how advance your weapons that matters, it is how your strategy works.

It is not how much knowledge you possess that matters, it is how you use them and the way you think.