Sunday, 25 October 2015

医学第二年终


终于来到了这一天,感触良多。而正是因为感触太多,不知该如何表达。虽然少了米雪,但整体上还是非常棒的。
也许我首先该说的是,和去年的组别相比我真的比较喜欢今年的组别。就是有那种喜欢和他们一伙人相处的感觉,这种感觉是我去年没有的。去年,我总不喜欢和组员吃饭,不只是吃饭,其实做什么我都不想和他们一起做,除非真的有那个必要。这不是个别组员的问题,在一起时的那个氛围就是怪怪的。俗话说物以类聚,人以群分。去年的那伙人,看来真的不是我这“群”的。

今年可就不一样了,年头有米雪,奠定了我对这一组良好的感觉。当然,她的存在只是一部分,第二学期的我们过得一样快乐就证明了这一点。该怎么形容这一种感觉呢?还是那个例子,大家会相约吃午餐,大家一起庆祝生日(或许明年他们会出现在我家门口),还有大家都会向往一起分享的时光。这叫做归属感吧。而这个归属感之所以存在,并不是由于我一人的想法和感受,乃是每个组员都有同样的感觉,才得以体现出来。

不过,这不代表我对照片里的每一个人都有深刻的认识。这或许是社交中的另一个现象,大家很享受彼此的陪伴,但不会分享太多自己的事情。我想开口暴露自己最多的是我,还以为可以“抛砖引玉”,让大家说说一些心底话,结果个个“守口如瓶”。或许他们真的不晓得自己喜欢怎样的对象,也真的不曾喜欢上任何人。难道谈谈爱情有那么困难吗?大家想知道我和米雪的关系我都如实招来了,前女友也交代了。咦,其实有一位女生说她追求童话般的爱情,还说如果她喜欢上人家,对方也都会喜欢上她。还有一个说,她的心仪对象肯定不会是像我这样淘气、无礼、幼稚、废话连篇、动作多多的家伙。没关系,这只显明了她的目光无法看透我表面的保护色。我正在等待下一个可以看见我的与众不同的女孩。我的优点,统统隐藏在里面,好比包着银的浮渣,需要女孩的发现。


好了,谈谈别的事吧。就如我所述,医学第二年我过得很愉快。不提我第一学期失恋的哀伤,我在医学院上课的日子是很快乐的。第一学期还有很多作业要忙,第二学期就相对地轻松许多了。虽然考试压力很大,但我越来越喜欢上这门科系。暂且不讨论这一条路是否真正属于我,既然分岔路已过,就不必回头。有时很懊恼该如何记住这么多的知识,但只要想起世上有那么多医生我就觉得好多了。今年所学的知识很有趣,因为都可以实际运用,不如去年的生物化学般过于抽象微观。除了学术上的长进,更重要的是人格的锻炼。当下常常认为自己做了很成熟的反应,回头看时却觉得自己怎么那么幼稚。这或许是自己一直都在进步的象征吧,只有不断地成熟才能够看得见自己过去的不成熟。


话说我的组员们常常在言语上开玩笑地攻击我,我却可以感受到他们其实都很在乎我。

这个现象,都发生在我的每个朋友圈里。

医学第二年,终!

Saturday, 17 October 2015

理发




其实就只是想放上一张自己今天的照片。

每一次理发后都很开心。除了比平时帅气,更令人爽快的是整个头颅轻了许多。看着头颅两旁被剃刀唰唰一扫而过的头发掉落在胸前的围巾上,有种非笔墨所能形容的快感。不晓得当下大脑大量释放出的是多巴胺或是内啡肽还是两种皆有,快乐和满足感爆表。

理发可以是一种爱好吗?

仔细想想过去,自己对何时该去一趟理发院还挺有规划的。中学时期我都是至少四个星期剪一次头发。每一次过后,我都会看看日历下一次该什么时候去。而我也会看看次月是否有重要的日子,譬如说考试。考试前一两周我是不会去理发的,原因纯粹是想剩下时间温习功课。因此,我会计算什么时候该剪头发,结果是有时候会延迟至超过六个星期才去理发。重要的日子也当然包括农历新年。除了上述原因,会延迟理发是因为看着镜子里如灌木般的头发被修剪得整整齐齐亮亮丽丽,喜乐无穷尽。这就是为什么大家会时不时看见我杂乱无比的发型了。这就解答了大家多年来埋在心中的疑问对吧?

如果这不能算得上是爱好,也许就是一种强迫症了。常常有这样一个幻想,希望自己能够聘请一位理发师,每个星期只要头发开始凌乱就可以修一修。说真的,我的头发就像公园里的灌木,需要园丁常常修剪。

还有,洗澡用双手搓洗头发时的感觉也很棒。由于头发短和薄了,似乎每一根头发从发尖至发根都被清洗。头发过长时搓洗起来的感觉是粗糙的,有太多的阻力。

真的是太喜欢理发了。

很喜欢今天的造型,特别有模范学生的感觉。还有人说我变得成熟了,哈哈。只可惜他是男的。不过,女孩子通常都不擅于表达自己的感想。

Saturday, 3 October 2015

Pantai Kerachut

Kerachut beach is the beach I visited most so far in my life. I have been there at least once every year since 2010. It has a camping site and a small hall. But it has no kiosk selling food and beverage.

The first time I went to the beach was with a bunch of juniors. It was sort of like a custom in our uniform body for seniors to bring the juniors there to camp for a night. However, due to the security concerns we decided to make it as a day trip.


We brought a lot of supplies including a tent and a stove there for the first few times, with all the zeal and energy. We entered the national reserve forest of Penang in the morning and walked for 2 hours to reach the beach. Then we would cook lunch and explore the area until evening. One will definitely reluctant to return from the forest track after the 2-hour tiring journey, so we would take a speedboat back to the port at the entrance of the national park.

It is my dream to spend a night at the beach. The dream is yet to be fulfilled because I find no comrades. The excitement to camp at the beach subsides through out the years because it seems to be a real challenge to survive in the wild long after I graduated from high school.


In the recent one or two years, we would just enter the jungle with a light backpack after lunch. No tent, no elaborate cooking. And we would spend the afternoon by reading books and eating snacks. We will absolutely watch the sunset if the weather is permissible before embarking on the return journey by the speedboat. Surprisingly, the fee to rent a speedboat which has 12 seats is still RM80 for the past 5 years.


The bad news is an entrance fee will be imposed starting next year. Besides, camera, fishing rods and other different items will be charged for a fee as well. I think I will still visit the national park but less frequently.

Sunday, 13 September 2015

那些年,女孩教会我的事

老早就想提笔总括我从女孩身上学到的事,但那时的我还在为逝世的爱情哀悼,没有现在那么的豁达。其实,准确地说我要写的应该是我从这段恋情学习到的功课。这样一来内容范围便广大了许多。原本想好好回顾那些年,然后整理出可以让我加冕成为爱情专家的十大信条,并把它传扬天下,使得我的后辈可以不必为爱情戴孝,执子之手,与子偕老。

我思考了很久,把回忆播了又播,始终无法写出十大金句。因此,就只能随性把对我有着深远影响的事写了下来。这些算是非常个人的教训吧。

两年八个月四天。

在开始之前,我想说千万别让鸭子看见了这篇文章,否则我又要请她吃上好几顿饭了。鸭子和我有个约定,谁要是向谁提到了前任,一次就要罚一顿饭。目前比分是九比五,马条占下风。

九百七十七天。

我想女孩教会我的事,大致上可以分成两个方面,一个是人品,一个是行为。人品就是倾向于思想上的改变。行为就是可以看得见的动作。后来才发现,女孩带给我的影响不小。

第一,我学会了忍耐和包容。这是与人相处之道的第一要点。十八岁的我第一次离乡背井,开始和来自各地不同背景的人打交道,女孩在这一个课题上给我开了速成班。但是话说回来,只有在你注重的关系上你才会选择包容到底。女孩也培养了我陪她逛街的耐性,我觉得这一个环节很重要,是大家参与彼此生活的表现。虽然最终我选择了放弃包容忍耐,但我还是会继续努力的。

第二,我学会了爱。我很爱女孩,从爱她的过程中慢慢地延伸到爱家人和朋友,也体会到了上帝的爱。很奇怪对吧?我从小就收获了家里太多的爱,却不曾回应家人的爱。由于尝到了没有回应的爱的苦涩,我开始明白我不给妈妈打电话时她会是多么地伤心,还有她时时刻刻拨电给我的心情。家人会不会认为我只在有需要的时候奔向他们?我变得会向更多普通朋友派送关怀,知道每一个人都值得被爱。从中我也知道我能给的爱不会是完美的,只有上帝的爱是完全的。

第三,我学会了不以自己的经历检视别人。那一天,我很惊讶一个朋友竟然没到过水上乐园,那可是我童年最常去的旅游胜地。这一个惊讶换来了女孩半天的冷酷。女孩说别人没去过,没什么大不了。那是女孩第一次说她讨厌我说话的方式。我花了一些时间来明白这是怎么一回事。要晓得自己习以为常的事,对于其他人来说未必如此。那时的我心胸还不够宽大,看不清这一点。日后,遇到一个没到过槟城的吉隆坡朋友,我只是轻轻地哦一声,附加一句:下次过来玩玩吧。

第四,我点麦当劳套餐时都将饮料换成雪碧。这是直接受到了女孩的影响,不晓得雪碧是否是女孩最爱的饮料。当时恍然大悟自己不一定要喝可乐,并在荷尔蒙的影响下爱上雪碧,自己其实对饮料没什么意见。后来也就成了习惯,沿用至今不求变。

第五,我学会了晒衣前把衣服用力甩几下才挂上衣架。据女孩说,这样做的话衣服干了之后会比较平整。那是第一次要亲自动手做家务,女孩都和我一起晒衣物。

第六,我学会了整齐地铺床单。铺床单其实不困难,在遇见女孩前我都把床单套上了就算大功告成。那一天假期结束,陪女孩大扫除,女孩对我铺的床单很不满意。床单要铺得平平整整,多余的部分要塞在床下拉直,总之最终成果要好像床穿上了紧身衣。看见女孩对铺床单的要求那么高,心中燃起了浓浓的敬意,不愧是精明的家庭主妇。

第七,我学会了不给每样西都赋予意义。我是一个很念旧的人,一些中学课本和笔记直到现在还留着,我觉得那些物品承载着我中学的记忆。也许是因为这一个个性我常常都会把一些事情和东西或地点链接,算是作个纪念。偶尔还会回忆去年的今天我在干什么。就是因为这样我才会显得忧郁。当我开始不去纪念琐碎的事,整个人也就轻松了起来,少了一些些烦恼和忧愁。这一个劝告我一直铭记在心,日子也就过得快活多了。

第八,女孩劝诫我不要以为自己很重要。不过马条就是认为自己非常的重要啊!

当女孩所带来的伤痛被曾经种种的美好驱散,剩下的是一张空图,不是全黑,也不再很绚丽。同一张图,将由友谊重新上色。

女孩,谢谢你!虽然我已经说了很多次,但常常心存感恩才不会忘恩。祝你幸福、快乐,一生有恩惠、慈爱随着你。

Tuesday, 8 September 2015

The Traveller I Am


Took the quiz by BBC. I started to love travelling when I went to Europe last year. It is amazing how travelling helps to augment my knowledge and allow me to view things from different perspectives. The entire experience, from researching the destinations until I come back with an exhausted body, teaches me many things that really cannot be learnt through any books. You get to know how big is the world and how small you are. You have the chance to meet different people and know that not all welcome your presence just as you don't like certain people in your country. And there is no big place nor small place, civilized or not doesn't make any difference to you if you are a true traveller. You won't detest the third worlds, you won't adore the first worlds.

It is so true that the result says about me. I am a documentarian. I like to document everything I see and experience in the journey. So I have a 30 days journal for my last trip. The first thing I will rush to will be the museums and monuments in a new place. The history, art and people are what I really want to explore in the new city. No, being a documentarian does not mean I am the crazy photographer whose sole purpose is to capture as many photos as I can. I will do more than that definitely.

Humility is the key to a meaningful trip as well. You enter the city as a guest, not an intruder. There are certain ethics are to be followed to minimize the disturbance to the local life. Keeping the place clean and preserve the monuments are just some of them. Be humble to learn about the city. With a humble heart you will accept different people have different ways of practice. With a humble heart you will respect different beliefs and thoughts. 

When you return, you will be someone better, for sure.  

Saturday, 29 August 2015

First Poster Presentation

My poster and I

Even though it was just a hurdle requirement, which means it was not graded but we have to fulfil it, it was an awesome experience. Because we knew there would be no marks given for it, our team did not put much efforts into it. We could have done better than this.

My idea on a health promotion for Kechara Soup Kitchen was selected for the poster presentation. It was about hygiene care, a simple enough idea. Our primary goal was to get all the clients in the centre to wash hands before meals.

One cool thing about the presentation day was we were the only group with allowed informal attire because we had our agency's shirt. Another interesting thing on that day was we had a 2/3 chance of winning a prize, but we did not. Haha.

I should have put more effort, to the least prepare my script beforehand. I thought I could speak well enough directly 'fresh' from my mind. It was proven that my crapping skills were not adequate for formal presentations. Haha. Why? The judges had a criteria to mark on.

Anyway, this is medicine! In the future there will be more presentations to come. 


Be mattified, be mattnificent

P.S Mid semester test is coming up! The download speed is critically slow. Hopefully I can download all the exam material before exam.