I think this is perfectly true for me. Months have past and I seem to stuck in the loop of stages of grief. If you don't know what are the stages of grief, there five, namely - denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. I have been going through the cycle over and over again. I tried to get out of it but I really don't know how. So I wait patiently for time to act, for time to heal. But is it working? Does this have to do with genetics? The coping mechanism in myself? She seems like she has moved on completely, wiping off the footprints left behind her, leaving no traces of the past.
Why do I still keep the photographs.
Perhaps I am not keeping them, I just don't trash them away. Why should I? It is a part of my life. I couldn't possibly deny what has happened.
But I doubt that I would look through the photographs again. It will only elicit pain and nothing else. However, I realize that the worse part is I can see them without physically look at them, they etch in my mind.
The feelings of despair set in again recently. It is the same experience like last year. The tightness on my chest resonates through my body and soul. I couldn't sleep. I wake up in despair.
How much time do I need more to get over this.
I know even if the wound healed there would be a scar, the pain will be forever there. It will only diminish, it will not disappear. It's like the half-life graph in Physics. The pain, just the radioactive particle, will only diminish over time, but it will not be gone.
Overseas, it is still a dream to be fulfilled.
My heart will still break a little when I hear your name, even 10 years later.
'We keep this love in a photograph We made these memories for ourselves Where our eyes are never closing Hearts are never broken Times forever frozen still
So you can keep me Inside the pocket Of your ripped jeans Holdin' me closer 'Til our eyes meet You won't ever be alone Wait for me to come home'
I have watched twice for Avengers: Age of Ultron. Apparently it is one of my favourite films. I just love to see how different superheroes with their distinct personalities interacting with each other. My favourite character is non other than the Ironman. To me, the advancement in technology is more appealing than any in built super powers. That's why I like Batman too. But Batman is darker than the humourous Ironman. And I always think myself is humourous.
In Avengers, each superheroes with their distinct characters and abilities, have to work together to achieve a common goal. It is not easy. In real life, it is the same scenario for us to work in a group. Some people have to compromise, some people have to put down their pride. Each one of them have their own weaknesses as well, which are easily manipulated as portrayed in the movie. We have flaws, regardless of how hard we strive for perfection.
Appreciate the friends who accept fully of who you are. Treasure them, and embrace them just like how they have hugged you tightly. You can't have all the world to agree with you. There are people who will stand with you in good and in bad times. Recognized that there will be same people who don't like you naturally, just like you would dislike some people at the first sight.
There are two scenes which I love in the Avengers 2. Can't really explain why but I just like it. I like that all superheroes are fighting together side by side.
I like how they eventually lined up together when they were scattered across the jungle.
This is the one when all of them were trying to protect the core.
