TO LSJ

Dear GLSJ:

LSJ. You sure know who am I referring to.

LSJ, is an acronym of your name, is a short form, is a symbol of you when I was small. Just please don't ask me why. Maybe it's because last time in primary school we needed to refer to somebody secretly (again, kindly don't ask me why.Lame people have lame reasons.), idiots also know using the person's acronym will be the best way.

Yeah, we know each other since kindergarten!I frantically searched through my mum's kindergarten album when I heard you were at my mum's school some years back , and found one.Though I don't know where is it now.Ha.What an old old friend!But the time we actually met and truly know each other 'consciously' was in the year 2002 I think. We were in the same class and you were sitting beside me for 2 years in a row and the third year I prayed 'oh God not she again' and God heard it and I regretted it deeply(again, lame people have lame reasons.Don't ask questions.). What happened through the years we grew up, we both know best in our hearts. Some crazy childish thoughts, some feelings and some remorse. You were cute and cheerful.

Ah, I am surprised you still remember that!!Exactly the time!Right after I shifted to Kulai, Johor I got my first and only handphone number until now, eager to keep in touch with you, but we ended up quarrelling. It was the first time I was being rude to you and I hope it would be the last.=) That time you were annoyed by the guys gossiping about you and me. I understand.

How we reconciled? I forgot the time. Haha. Yea, pretending nothing happened is always the key to save a relationship.XD However, obviously we went through different paths. You had your own problems and I had mine. Almost the same time line I think, we fell for other persons. And the outcomes were different too.

You are still a cheerful girl in my eyes, no matter what you say, like what we didn't see the real you or something like that. Nothing is gonna to destroy you or take away all your happiness and joy. Not even a guy.All you need to do is LET GO. You might think that I didn't go through what you do, but I assure you I fully understand the feeling. I am not saying this out of comforting and sympathy, I meant it. STAY FOOLISH, forget all the sadness and frustration. It's very easy, just you must be willing to take the first step to shut the window to that. I had gone through bad times and difficulties during these five years which you can't imagine. You see, shifting to Johor then Perth then Petaling Jaya then back to here. All the places, I needed to start all over again, making new friends, be strong against jeers and laughs. Even though I was back to my hometown, it was not that familiar to me anymore. There were helpless times for our family, alone out there miles away from the rest, we overcame it together at last. Something bad happened which we concealed even to our own relatives, buried deep in our hearts and minds. Of course I am not going to say it here, the time has not come yet.

However now I look back all the years (wow,feel that I am speaking like Steve Jobs lol), the events happened somehow shape and mould me into what I am now. And I am still on the change, to be a better person. Every single event, little by little they built up my character and my thoughts. As you know I changed school for 3 times in 3 years, I developed good adaptation skills to the environment, and to the people around. That's why some people said I am highly sociable. They said this in a sarcastic way but it's ok for me. =) Adversity creates strong people, how true it is. Now I am immuned against the jeers!Hahaha.

Well, yea I have changed. But one thing I can't change is I am kind hearted. I always have the impulse to solve and help out others problems. I regard this as genetic heredity now. Cool.I inherited this characteristic from my dad, who can give a lift to a worker in a shop by the roadside. My dad knows him because he sees him everytime when he was shopping in the mini market. To be precise my dad don't know him at all. -.-" When I came to this school, I was cheated and felt strongly someone was taking advantage of my hospitality and kindness. I told you before. I tried to be adamant and turn my back to them but without realizing I was giving them a hand again. Later on I learnt that as Christians we must not only love our love ones ( since everyone in the world can do that, of course.) but also our enemies (which I don't think everyone in the world will).And we are the light and salt of the world, should be a blessing for others.

I helped you LSJ out of my protective instinct. As your best friend I know I must not refrain from you and let you alone bear it all the devastating problems. Do not feel guilty or embarrassed, I consider this as an insult as WE ARE BEST FRIENDS. XP

What are Best Friends??

BEST FRIENDS ARE THOSE WHO WALK WITH YOU ALONG THE ROAD.

BEST FRIENDS ARE THE ONES YOU CAN TURN AND CRY FOR.

BEST FRIENDS ARE ALWAYS THERE EVEN THOUGH YOU FORGET ABOUT THEM WHEN YOU HAVE A CRUSH.

BEST FRIENDS WILL NEVER EVER QUIT FROM YOUR LIFE.

BEST FRIENDS ARE FOR YOUR HARD TIMES.

BEST FRIENDS ARE FEW BUT ARE SUFFICIENT FOR YOU.

Please bear in mind that, no more asking Neri and I to quit.Grrr. Chasing us away like houseflies. You may ask me why, why I become your best friend?

Well, I don't know, but I sense a bond between you and me.

Last time we were , erm, you know, but now we can still being so good to each other, don't you feel amazing?

You can overcome this, Neri and I know for sure. Trust yourself as we trust you.=)

LSJ, let it remains as the symbol.

love,

Matty.

May the good Lord bless you.XD

Perharps you didn't realize, you have helped me a lot too.=)