Two O One Four

From one point of view, this transition have never been so fruitful and exciting to me. I thought woe to me this time I had to stay in church for thanksgiving and watch night services. In other words, counting down to the new year in church, without friends. Since I attended the first time I have been finding excuses to skip the church services, either celebrate with friends or rather go to bed early. Ya, you got it right, it is going to be real bored spending such rare occasion on the church bench.

I decided to attend because I couldn't find any good excuses and I was guilty of skipping for several years. On top of that I didn't have the one as company to count down together with me in this so called sweet 1314 transition. Things changed when Clarence told me he would be fetching Angie Loh there. I was like, W-H-A-T? Why on earth would Angie Loh attend? And why watch night service. This was going to be interesting.

Okay, this wasn't her first time to church yet she asked some questions which to us were like why-you-have-two-hands. Thank God the more mature brother in church provided satisfactory answers. And just because Clarence, Amos and Yun Sheng those KDU students were busy with their own stuff and Angie idled with me around in the church, all the aunties and uncles thought we were a couple. Unsurprisingly, my mum was the first to pull me aside and bombard me with questions. "She was your student last time, don't you remember?" I replied in a good manner, not sure if I answered her questions. Everyone thought I brought her to church. My Youth Fellowship friends thrown at me we-suspected-you-have-a-girlfriend-so-here-she-is-huh kind of faces. Come on, my girlfriend would definitely be more gorgeous, if there is one. (Alright Angie if you are reading this line, just want to tell you from my heart you are very pretty as well, some aunties agree with me.)

Sorry Angie that we were so peaceful and chill when the clock hit twelve. We couldn't do much in the church right. Anyway, we went to auto city after the services, where we proceeded to mamak because the restaurants were closed. From there we had a list of our firsts of the year 2014.

First meal of the year, roti kosong with limau ais.

First ride of the year, blue CRV.

First place of the year, Grace Church.

First breath of the year, air.

First mission of the year, waking up Amos.

First mission accomplished of the year, waking up Amos.

My new year's eve was just so fun. Four of us planned to skip the watch night service this year end and find a place to celebrate.

Reached home at 2.30am, knowing well we had the Leader's Retreat to attend at 10.00am back in church.

Ohya, Happy New Year 2014!!

New Year's Eve 2013

How much more can I elaborate for New Year's Eve?

Carpe Diem is the word!

Today is no ordinary day (In fact the same goes for everyday)! It's time to wrap up everything in the year 2013, let go of every mistake and be ready to embrace a brand new 2014!

Finally we are entering a new age, our age will start with 2_ from tomorrow. I think this indicates we are grown ups, we are more mature. Even though we are still pursuing our dreams in respective universities, but I believe as an adult we can achieve more! 

As a Christian I believe each and everyone of us is not created for mediocrity, we are God's masterpiece. It's time to step up guys! Be willing to make the first move. We can make a difference, and we can start now! We are not adolescents any more, nor infants. The difference is, infants are always receiving, but adults are capable of giving. Giving is not all about money, there are more valuable things we can offer other than money, we can share our love, our time, to name a few.

If there are dreams in your heart, I encourage you to make them a reality. Remember, we have the potential, we are formed with a purpose. To change the world, let the change begins within us first. I know it is easier said than done, so let us constantly reflect and check on each other.

Revolution starts with you.

2013年的最后一个星期天

终于来到了年尾，还是疲惫，还是迷茫。

今天的天气很阴凉，是我很喜欢的天气。如此的天气，很想呆在户外，看看蓝天，吹吹凉风，总之不要受到屋里狭小空间的限制，让视野开阔。

然而我整个人一直感到这样的疲惫已经有好一阵子了，一天到晚都想睡。我好像是在努力地偿还从前熬夜的睡眠债，醒了还是累，累了继续睡。也许利息太高了，需要一段时间才能还完。因此，我还是打消了外出的念头，如果稍微有点精神就到阳台透透气吧。

想一想，不想外出的原因是否可以完全归咎于疲惫。我开始喜欢呆在家里，当个宅男。把自己锁在房间里，做自己想做的事情，或看书，或打字，或躺着，不亦乐乎。你可以认为我孤独症复发，而事实是我享受孤独。与世界隔离，少了喧哗，多了宁静。这也许是我内向的表现，正如妳说的，一个人无法像硬币般被定义为内向或外向，而内向不是贬义。内向是个性的一种，不能被断定是成功的阻碍。至于朋友的“随机”邀约，我还是不会抗拒的。

我迷茫，是因为看不见前方的路。明年对我来说，充满着未知数。想打份工，好好磨练自己，却碍于公共服务局为期一个星期的培训营而让时间分配有困难。还有该到哪里留学，虽然现在不由得我选择，但心中对想去的地方存在着矛盾。这时候，只能依靠上帝，凭着信心的眼往前迈开步伐。

我的心，总是在盼望。

汉语的博大精深

“冬天，有多少穿多少；夏天，有多少穿多少。”

“剩女产生的原因有两个：一是谁都看不上，二是谁都看不上。”

“想和某个人在一起的两种原因：一种是喜欢上人家，另一种是喜欢上人家。”

以上三句是摘自《读者》2013第十六期的言论版。你看懂了吗？刚开始大略看过，还以为看漏了字，怎么有两行都在重复。看到标题是“汉语的博大精深”，更加摸不着脑袋了。心想这明明只是乱来的反复修辞手法，而且还带有冷笑话的元素，哪来博大哪来精深啊。由于不甘就这样被蒙在鼓里，所以不弄个明白誓不休。经过反复的阅读和揣摩，终于看懂了！汉语，果然博大精深啊！

你，明白了吗？

Christmas?

3 days more to Christmas! Do I sound excited enough? What am I thinking. It is hard to put it into words. I am contemplating while I am writing this.

Surely Christmas is worth celebrating. We are to commemorate the birth of our saviour Jesus Christ. Admittedly the feeling is getting numb, like it has become a routine. Am I in some sort of spiritual dryness now? This feeling has been started to haunt me since I came back here to the comfort zone, where every meal is taken care of and there is nothing to busy with. I sleep a lot, but every time I wake up I feel weary. I take naps, still I am thinking to bed a few hours later. I guess it's too much sleep itself that causes me the fatigue. Apart from that, I am less disciplined, I am reluctant to get out of bed when it is the time. Feel ashamed to say, I shorten my devotion time.

Well, I must bear in mind the true meaning of Christmas. Celebrate it with the joy from the bottom of the heart, not just singing carols for the sake of singing it. And the same goes with attending church, I believe many Christians attend worship service every Sunday out of routine, judging by the expression of their faces. Don't misunderstand me, I am not judging, for there is no condemnation in Christ. I am just reminding ourselves, expect something in church services, worship the Lord with our hearts. For we serve a living and mighty God, He deserves our best and He longs to hold us close.

Enough preaching. Ha.

The Christmas tree is not set up in my house this year, perhaps we have more shoes to place so there is no space left outside. Since young I like to imagine the snowy night of silent night, so serene and tranquil and peaceful. We have no snow here, but I would like to feel that warmth from the fireplace every year this time, watching movies featuring Christmas on TV. Speaking of this, I particularly like The Polar Express. Many of my imaginations come from that animation. When the movie ends, the clock ticks 12 times signifying it's Christmas day. Phone vibrates and vibrates, blessings are sent in and out through thin air. My mind would drift back to the past, to the things that happened, to the remnants of memory. I would feel melancholic, and sometimes with a touching heart because of the movie I climb into bed.

I think this year would have many things to be remembered. However I guess I will be spending the night in a party. So silent night will not have so much silence. Haha. I am not grumbling, at least this year I try something different.

Merry Christmas! Joy to world! The Lord is come!

冲·上·昀·霄

参观空军基地，让我对我国的空军有更深一层的认识。骨子里本来就对自己国家所有的一切存在着偏见，认为国产的绝对不是好东西。说到军队，也觉得无法和国外媲美，心里质疑他们保家卫国的能力。常常有这样的想法：如果我国陷入战争，我们的军队是否可以保护我们。

这一趟让我了解到，对，我国的编队和装备或许不能和美国等国家相比，不过当敌军入侵时，他们还是会不留余力地抵挡及捍卫国土。心中不禁钦佩他们愿意为国家牺牲的精神。除此之外，我再次体会到电影与现实非常大的差距。电影里飞行员出神入化的技术绝对不是那么简单就可使出，总之身在空军基地，感觉和电影里的情节很不同。少了电影的紧张，多了现实的沉闷。

原来，每天早上和傍晚他们都会调派直升机在空中巡逻，也会派战斗机在海面上低空飞行检查油船。几个月前苏禄军入侵沙巴州，部分战斗机就是由北海空军基地派往的。此后听到战斗机起飞降落的轰轰声，不再感到厌烦了。

很基督教的一句话竟然在这里看见。

我国最先进的战斗机

直升机起飞